Villanelle

This was harder than i thought it would be, it's hard to find words that rhyme and fit together.>.<.


The salty water licked at me as I watched the sea
the waters dance in perfect time
and in the night I turn and flee

I take shelter by a nearby tree
and I settle in the grime
and in the dirt, fall to my knees

Screams erupt like a flight of banshees
the silence broken like a crime
I hide from this world were so many disagree

Will no one come to aid thee
is there nothing left to find
is there someone here that holds the key

is there nothing you can give me
to be free from this, is there time
what will help us to agree

the future, what is there, no one can foresee
and we can only know in a future place and time
and maybe in this world one day we won’t have to flee
and we could be together in this world and all be free.

Happy Birthday to me!! well kinda...

This weekend i got my birthday persent!! even thoguh my birthday isn't untill March 2nd this weekend was sorta a window of opotunity to actually get my present.
You see for as long as i could remember i always wanted to go sky diving and do many other crazy things like bungee jumping,scuba diving, and rock climing :P..but sky diving more so than anything else. So after asking for years and years my parents agreed that for my 18th birthday they would pay for me to go sky diving, but they always figured that i would grow out of it or change my mind by the time i actually was 18...but i didn't. Though after a lot of thought on my part i realized that i would rather have something more memorable for my 18th birthday present, and not just a memory plus i didn't want to drain my parents of $300 either. So i decided to trade in the promise of a sky diving experience for the promise of a tattoo!!
After getting permission from my parents i jumped online and did some research and found out that you have to wait 2 weeks after getting a tattoo to go swimming...which is a problem since im in lifeguard training. so i could either have gotten it this weekend or wait untill summer....and i couldn't wait that long...so my mom took me and my best friend to the tattoo parlor that i had been too previously to scope out and talk to the tattoo artist. I wanted a tattoo of an image that i found online of a white tiger so Scott(the tattoo artist) agree to draw out the image for me! ^_^ So when we got there we printed the image and he made a quick sketch, than reduced the size of it, than made some modifications, than made the actual stencil. now all this took about an hour so whileme,my mom and my friend were all waiting we were looking at the tattoo samples that were in the lobby and there were A TON! and while my mom was looking at some of them she just randomly comes out and says " you know, maybe i'll get one too." i was like "OMG! are you serious?!" and yeah she was... so she found an image that she liked, a little butterfly like thing, and so while i was waiting for scott to finish up the stencil.. my mom went into one of the tattooing rooms and another artist got started on her tattoo. When scott was finished with the sketch it was my turn. i saw my mom on the way back to scott's room and she said that it didn't hurt all that bad....SHE LIED! it did..-.-...but i survived and now i have the tattoo that i wanted!yeah! ^_^

Happy birthday! ^_^

today, February 9th is my mom's birthday! last time my friend's mom had a birthday, they ordered chinese and Courtney,my friend, had to ask me to not only lend her money so that she could get her mom a small gift, but also had me buy it too. In my family I like to try and make birthday's special! it only comes once a year and unlike other holiday's this holiday is unique to you(yes i know other people can have the same birthday as you but not many other peopel, and the focous is still on you, for the most part). so, as i do with even single thing that i possible can, i procrastinated untill the very last possable minute to do all the things that needed to get done. Wensday i had to go straight from school to an apointment than straight to work, and i didn't get back untill 9:00 at night, so i didn't have time to shop like i had planned, and yesterday i tried to get a preemptive strike against my brother by not even letting him on the computer because i knew if i let him on i would never get him off, and we had to go shopping!! so after a quick after school snack we went out to go shopping, but of course, my brother has no money for a girt-.-. *sigh* so of course it's up to me to lend him some money for this special occasion. So after stopping at the bank and cashing my check with the intent of spending all or most of it in one day of shopping. So we finally made it to wal-mart, our one-stop-shopping store for just about anything and we were looking around for a few of the things she said she wanted when i saw their valentine's section and i relized that valentine's day was slowly creeping up on me and i still had no idea what i was going to get my boyfriend. But it's so not fair! i mean, guys have it so easy! Flowers, candy, cute stuffed animals, jewlery, are all perfectly acceptable, easy, apropriate gifts for a girl for valentine's day. But what are we supposed to do!! it's so not fair. But my brother and i did manage to fine several birthday gifts for our mom than all the essentials like, ribbon, wrapping paper, candles, ballons, streamers, and birthday cards. we were heading out of the store at last with the $70 worth of gifts when we had to, of course, stop to play the "trophy hunting game" in the front of the store. My brother totally creamed me-.-, but it was totally unfair! the does were jumping into my line of fire, like "shoot me! shoot me!" stupid does..-.-. But we got home and hid the gifts in my already incredibly cramped closet, and waited untill after diner for our parents to leave for their weekly bowling game so that we could get some of the things ready. Well...like i mentioned before, i'm a bit of a procrastinator so of course i was being lazy watching t.v. and complete one after another " one last song" of guitar hero, and before i knew it, it was already 9:20 at night....20 minutes before my parents return. so i ran upstairs, pried my brother away from the computer, and we had a speed round of ballon blowing uping ( that sounds weird) and let me tell you after blowing up these annoying little ballons for 20 straight minutes, it gets pretty tiring. We finished blowing them up just as out parents got home. so we had to quickly round up all the ballons and hide them. then we all watched surviver, one of several "family shows" that we watch every week. And it's only at 11:00 that i realize we still havn't wrapped the presents and that i forgot one major componet nessesary for every birthday... yeah the cake. Got the candels,forgot the cake. So today after school I have to somehow, get home, make a cake, wrap all her presents and then i have to work-.-. of all the days that my boss decides to scheduale me even though i have requested the day off he picks today. then after working in a restuarant for 4-5 hours i have to go out with my family...to a resturant, my mom's favorite, Fridays. Ok, so it's now 10:30 at night, we eat diner, moms opened her lovly gifts, and everyone's happy, now i can relax and get a good night's sleep.....Ha yeah right, of course not, i still have to meet a few of my friends to go glow bowling, at 11:30 at night....for 2 hours....then i have to drive all the way home while my best friend will probably sleep the whole way. Bur if i can manage to stay away for the drive home then maybe i'll be able to get some sleep...though, i doubt it...